I’m not actually afraid of flying. Per se.
I am afraid of booking flights. I’m never happy to do it. It always feels wrong.
I, of course, procrastinate wildly, which makes things worse (and more expensive).
Of course, this is not flight specific. Booking anything is rough, and buying many things is equally difficult, even when it’s not my own money.
I don’t think it’s especially when it’s not my own money.
This makes a surprising number of things difficult.